Tae

I'm depressed.  It's been creeping up on me for days now, and today I found myself teary for no immediate reason.  On the one hand, it's completely at odds with reality (which is not unusual for people suffering from depression) because I have amazing friends and they've been even more amazing in the past week or so.  Everyone wants to talk to me, and that makes me feel special.   (Especially since I'm not terribly exciting.  I'm more the opposite.  Get hold of me in person and I talk a lot about my dogs.  This is no doubt in part because I'm a sucker for dogs and truly adore them... but also largely because I don't have anything else to talk about.)

On the other hand... I've had a lot of latent frustration building up for months now, and it has nowhere to go.  There is little or nothing I can do about what is frustrating me... aside from maybe moving to Sweden.  (Which I can't do, and even if I could it would bring it's own set of problems.)  And this time of year is pretty much tailor-made to make things worse.

With the hope that I'll get positive reactions and it will help mitigate the upwelling of frustration and stymied annoyance... here is a holiday meme.  Well, two actually.

First, the Holiday Love Meme:

Comment with your username and people will comment anonymously with things they love and cherish about you. Stay anonymous simply because it makes the atmosphere lighter and more mysterious, kind of like a Secret Santa only with love and holiday cheer! People will wonder who these caring people are and appreciate the fact that they exist, not only the fact that they may be best friends with them.  My thread is here.

Second, the 2010 Holiday Wishlist Meme

Step One

Make a post (public, friends-locked, filtered...whatever you’re comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of ten Holiday Wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fun to medium to really big to fandom things. The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want. If you wish for real possible things, just make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it’s your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ, or link to this post so that the holiday joy will spread.

Step Two

Surf around your friends list (or friends of friends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. Here’s the important part: If you see a wish you can grant, and it’s in your heart to do so, make someone’s wish come true. Once a wish has been granted, it will be crossed off the list. You needn’t spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn’t to put people out, it’s to provide everyone a chance to be someone else’s holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it’s your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you’ll have the joy of knowing you made someone’s holiday special.
( Tae's List Here )